Smartie - Seeking companionship

So many people try so hard to `sell` themselves on sites like this, I'd rather be open and honest & be myself & not pretend to be something I'm not, after all that's what most on here are looking for aren't they, the open & honest type! I wish I was the confident, outgoing & socialable type, three personal traits it seems most look for in another, but I aint, lack of self confidence is an issue with me, need to work on that one & I've always been very shy & that doesn't make socialising an easy task, actually I suffer with social phobia which for those don't have a clue what that is, to explain it in layman's terms think extreme shyness.

The world can be a lonely place when interacting with others is something you tend to avoid, which I do, but then i'm no different than anyone else in wishing I had someone special in my life, a human heart isn't supposed to beat alone forever but alas mine has for along time & when others don't seem interested in knowing someone who isn't `perfect` I guess that situation won't change.

Speaking of which, the reason I decided to write on my profile about my social phobia is down to a number of people on here who seemed interested in getting to know me until I worked up the courage to tell them about my social difficulties, after which I wasn't worth to even chat to apparently, what's all that about! I'm hoping there's someone out there who would take the time to see past what they see on the outside, to see past my social phobia and take the time to get to know the real me but I'm beginning to think I'm asking too much.